Showing posts with label ivf. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ivf. Show all posts

Monday, November 11, 2013

My 2WW

2WW= Two Week Wait

Well- To say that this is the hardest of all... Is an UNDERSTATEMENT!!!!

It is pure HELL! Wondering if the embryos implanted or NOT!
You are afraid to sneeze!
I took a lot of pregnancy tests! None of them showed up as POSITIVE so I was pretty sure that I was out!
It became a ritual! Every morning I would take a PG test! I am almost ashamed to say that sometimes, I took two!
Once I started to prepare myself for the WORST case scenario, which is NOT PREGNANT... Time started to fly by! 

FAST FORWARD: I started having a strange mucus on 7 Nov... But I really didn't think much of it because... every where that I read said that CM (Cervical Mucus) was very normal... But I started bleeding a bit the next day. My clinic is closed on Friday so I just tried to take it easy and spent the evening with my husband since it was our Anniversary (Follow on Post pending!)
The next morning... The bleeding was worse, My husband called my clinic and they said that I needed to get into the ER ASAP!
So- I called a TAXI and off to the hospital. When I got there I spoke to the doctor on call and she said that I was 11 days past transfer so she was going to give me a pregnancy test, if it is positive, I will be admitted.
I got my blood took... And I sat in silence for an hour... Just waiting. The LAB advised me that my results were ready. I took my paper with a control number to the desk and they printed my results. I asked, "Is it Yes or No?" They told me that the doctor would be with me soon. Another 10 minutes of waiting.... 
I walked in and the doctor told me that I would be admitted for Pregnancy Support... Wait, Hold on...
I AM PREGNANT??? I was in SHOCK!
She told me that though it was a bit early to test, anything over 6 is pregnant... And I was 19!

I texted my husband and gave him the news.

I got to my room... I got two injections and an IV... I had to continue taking my Endometrim and Folic Acid...

The bleeding didn't stop... They said in 48 hours they would take my blood again to see if my HCG doubled or not.

My husband stayed by my side the whole time! THANK YOU HUBZ! He spent 2 nights in the hospital bed with me!

Fast Forward: 11 Nov 2013... At around 0730 the nurse came and took my blood.
About an hour later 3 doctors and 2 nurses walked into my room.
I was told that my numbers dropped significantly and that I was loosing the baby/babies. She told me that she would discharge me...
The lady was just so FRANK about it... I just said, "Ok"
When they left the room... I burst into tears... 
I couldn't believe it! I was pregnant... Now... I am not.
A Chemical Pregnancy... That is the term for an EARLY miscarriage... Early being, before a heart rate is found. (I was 4 weeks and 4 days)
I dreaded calling Gustavo. I didn't want him to be upset at work... But he was the only person that I had to call... And I did.
How am I feeling?
-I feel like my body betrayed me... Like it expelled our babies... I started wondering what I could have done different... What will we do next? Was I too stressed?

On a positive note, I spoke to my American friend and she did in fact get pregnant too! I am so excited for her! I did not get news from my Kuwaiti friend from my clinic, but I am sure I will tomorrow!

For the people who I did tell and talk to about this... They ask, "What are you going to do now?"
Ummm, We don't know. I have to give my body time to heal and I have to prepare myself mentally as well! We have vacation coming up and we have to close on our house... So, making our baby is on a back burner for the moment! We have a lot of things to take care of.

Gustavo has been the best support EVER and it makes me love him more and more!
Also- Karina... She came and laid in bed with me... Visited with me... Helped with the kids! Gracias 

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Our Egg Transfer 29 October 2013

 Anxiety hit me around 2 AM. I got up to tinkle and couldn't go to sleep afterwards. So many thoughts were twirling in my head! Gustavo was sleeping soundly beside me and since I knew he was going to work after I got the eggs transferred and settled back home, I didn't wake him.
 My eyes were wide open... I was thinking about the possibility of really having twins... Or even one baby... I had ruled out the possibility of ever having more kids, but... I want more now:)
 DJ and Mimi are growing up very fast! Though I think I might shelter them a bit too much... They are excited to have more brothers/sisters.

 Okay- On to the story. We got to check in around 0845. We signed some papers and paid for the embryo freezing (A whopping 350 KD!!!)  We went to our room and then returned back to the clinic around 0900. They took 3 of us in to the L shaped room. I was happy because one girl was from my last group and then The American was there too! YAY! Someone to talk to while I am waiting!
 We had to put on our gown like before and then... After about 20-30 minutes, I was told to tinkle and then I went into the room. It was dark and I laid down. I saw the Embryologist... He confirmed my name and then left the room. My room was in-between another room and the Lab door! The doctor came in and got everything prepared. It didn't hurt much. It was like a pap smear. He talked to me about the embryos. He said that 11 of the 18 were great blastocysts. So we inserted two and froze 9. He told the nurse, "Load" she then told the lab... After about 2 minutes, the Embryologist came in with a small and long tube. 

The doctor said he was done. I asked him, "How do you know they are both in there?" He said, "I am going to check now" When he returned, he confirmed they were both inside. The nurse then tilted my bed. Head down, legs up and told me to keep my legs bent.
(Breakdown: 27 eggs retrieved, 21 were mature, 18 fertilized... 11 kept growing...)
Now- I want you to understand that it is normal for your numbers to decrease significantly. So, do not worry if this happens to you.
 It was strange because they left the door open so I could hear what was going on in the room beside me! Poor girl, She had to do the procedure 3 times because her embryos were not going out of the tube!
 After about 30 minutes I was moved to a holding area. I remember I looked at the clock and it was 1215. A Kuwaiti lady was there (The same from the L shaped room) so we started talking. She was really so sweet! I was told that I had to stay in the hospital... 3 days! I said, "No Way!" So, I only had to stay until about 7 PM:) I saw the American and the sweet Kuwaiti before I left the hospital! How nice will it be to be pregnant with other people!
 How am I feeling:
Well- I feel ok. I have a little bit of cramping. 
Let the torture of the wait begin!



Thursday, October 24, 2013

Leggo my Eggos

Here is a run down on my Egg Retrieval.



We woke up at 0700 to take a couple of pills that are supposed to help with nausea!
We got to the doctor around 0820 and had to fill out a couple papers and what not.
Then I was told to go and sit in an L shaped room. I was told to remove my clothes and put on a gown. I am not modest (Thank You US Army) but the Arab women in there with me, surely were. I felt a bit out of place.
I was the 3rd person up. I was told to tinkle... Then I went into the retrieval room. A man stuck his head thru a window and said, "Amber"... I said, "Yes Sir" I was laying down and then given meds. I also had oxygen or gas over my face. I clearly was having a hard time falling to sleep because everyone was looking at me and waiting. This time I actually got to see the doctor.
I woke up in a LOT of pain. I was moved to my room and Gustavo was there waiting for me. (Thank You Baby!!!) I was having a lot of pain. Gustavo had a nurse come and give me some pain shot. It really didn't help though. I felt like I was going to vomit, and I did. Many times! (I hate Propofol!)
The doctor came and told me that they got 27 eggs! 15 from one ovary and 12 from another!!!
(I think that was a GREAT number!!!) No wonder I was in so much pain! I was given Endometrin to take 3 times a day and Folic Acid as well. (Endometrin is a vaginal tablet!)
I have to take them at 6, 2 and 10! Daily! I am not sure how long I will have to take them!
 I was anxious to leave so I went with Gustavo to give his sample. When I got to that office, I got sick again.
We finally got in the car! Gustavo got me 7 UP and then HOMEWARD bound. We left around 1230.
 I ate some saltine crackers and drank 7 Up! Now I feel a lot better.
If I get pregnant...
Our due date will be 17 JULY 2014
If we get TWINS: 25 JUNE 2014

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Trkk5MFELI
(We did our FIRST VLOG!!!)


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Going out with a bang

Well, I got some good news! We are getting our retrieval tomorrow!!! I didn't know that I was going to have to take all these shots though! Going out with a BANG. (Shots)
 
I had to take 6 vials of Bravelle (3 power/1 water Xs 2) 1 in each thigh and 1 injection of Decapeptyl in my arem at 2130 then I had to get another shot.... (2 powder/1 water) in my Bum! The upper part, I am not going to lie, that was the most painful shot that I have taken! I do not know if it was the PERSON, the NEEDLE or the Meds! But I screamed! I am not sure what is the name of the meds but it was some HCG shot.
I got home around 11 PM. Gustavo is in Dubai... So it sucked having to do it all alone! I like it when he is with me.
So, I have to take a couple of pills in the morning and also take my meds to them (They made me buy the meds before the retreival)
 


 More to follow! I am hoping that Gustavo will fly in tonight, because I really NEED him tomorrow! He will be doing his part!
I hope I do not get sick from the MJ Milk (Propofol) like I did last time!
It is funny because the Dr. said that I look Strong but I am "delicate" and "sensitive" to the medicine! LOL...

Monday, October 21, 2013

More Menopur

I went to the doctor last night. I got my blood drawn and then a "WANDA" scan! I have 16 eggs! Basically, I have 8 eggs in my Left ovary and 8 in my Right as well. The biggest are 14-15mm. She said that is good for my 8th day! The goal is to get them to 18-20mm. I have a bit further to go. So... Now I have to take 5 menopurs/2 water injections.
1) 3 powder/1 water (Injection into one thigh)
2) 2 powder/ 1 water (Injection into the other thigh)
3) Gustavo also gives me an injection at home... To keep my ovaries sleeping
 
 


We go back on Tuesday! I am hoping that they will be big and fat! I do not know if we are going to do the retrieval on Thursday or Saturday... But I do know that it will be this week! And that is exciting. It is taking longer then I expected it would. This is day 34! Not that I did something EVERY day!
I am ready to get everything done! I know that the WORST thing will be waiting to see if I am pregnant! That will be the longest WAIT! With everything that we have coming up, I think that I will be busy enough to keep my mind occupied!
I am already making the vacation calendar! So much to do!

 

Friday, October 18, 2013

Will there be more Menopur?

Tonight I will be getting my LAST dose of Menopur. (I hope!) I was directed to have 3 ampules: 1 water for 7 nights.

I am hoping that at my doctor's appt, that my eggs are going to be plenty and 20mm!
I have to get my blood drawn and then a scan.

How am I feeling???
- Emotional
- A bit bitchy
- Bloated
- Hot Flashes
- Soreness (My thighs)
- Head aches
- People piss me off... QUICKLY (Not the kids... Just the adults!)
- Cramping
- Some short SHARP pains in my stomach
- Lower back pain
- Tired

I have NO idea what they will say to me tomorrow. I just hope that it is good news! I hope that my doctor gives me some kind of answers.

Generally when I ask questions... My doctor always says, "Let's get this step done first"
***IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!***
I am glad that things are SLOWLY progressing!

Everyone in the house is waiting for this to happen! I already feel pregnant!







 

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Oh Doctor...

We went to the doctor on the 10th to get our prescription... It was EXPENSIVE. 159.500 KD
(565.48 USD)
 I have to take these for 7 days! I must go to the hospital to get these injections.
Gustavo will not be able to give me these injections... Joy oh Joy! I start these tonight. I will provide follow ons!
I am really feeling LOST in the process. My doctor hasn't given me a protocol... Or a timeline. I have been doing this about a month now. Medicine, hysterscopy, WANDA scans, period, More shots... SILENCE... And then more meds and shots.
I talked to another woman and she said that she went to the doctor and got shots in her stomach for 5 days... And Waaaaaaahhhh La... Egg Retrieval and Transfer... Preggo with Twins. (BOYS)
Even with the stuff that I am reading on the Internet... NOTHING matches the meds that I am given! I asked "Will I have a 3 or 5 day transfer?"... And he has the whole "Inshallah" attitude.
I never really get any answers...
(Woosa, whilst pulling upon my ear)
Practice my patience!!!
It is hard being a PLANNER and not being able to PLAN!

On a happier note!!! I get two days off to spend with my LOVELY family!!!
Seems like all of my teacher friends are off on FANTASTIC holidays! Enjoy EID! Have fun!

Friday, October 4, 2013

Ready.... Break? Huh???

Anyone who knows me... Knows that I am a planner. I plan EVERYTHING. It gives me a silent type of enjoyment... Stability. I feel like I have SOME control (When I really know I have ZERO!)

Sometimes I hate that I am the way that I am. Organized... Analytical and Systematic. SMH. I am NOT much fun!

So, my period came... Right on time... And I went to the doctor. Gave some blood... And then went back a couple of hours later to see the doctor. I knew that I would be getting my BASELINE ultrasound. What I didn't know is that he was measuring my womb. After "Wanda" left.
(BTW: This is "WANDA")
 




I felt the "Cervix opener" go in...
 

Meet MR. Speculum!!!

 Click click (I hate that sound) and then out of NO WHERE... PAIN! I grabbed that wall and the doctor said, "Stay still" (Can I get some FREAKING warning!!!???) What the hell is going on in there!? The pain brought tears to my eyes! First, I felt it on the Left side, then the Right side! It felt like the doctor STUCK needles into my tubes!
After a minute it was over... And I finally started to breathe. The nurse gave me a tissue... I wasn't sure if I should wipe my face or my "Pocket Book"!!!
The doctor then gave me some BAD news... EID is coming so we are going to have to DELAY our cycle... Hmmm (I knew this was going to happen!!! I mentioned it to Gustavo weeks ago)

He told me to STOP taking my injections at home... (I still have 7 left) then he gave me a prescription.... I went and got the meds... Came back upstairs and WOW! I got a shot in my Left buttocks! It burned! So bad! The needle was big and the nurse had to mix the medicine... It was the same meds I have been taking. Just a much LARGER dosage 3.75 mg



So What is NEXT???
I have to go back to the doctor NEXT week (the 10th) to get my NEW meds and then on the 12th to get an injection... AND THEN,  I have to see the doctor on the 19th. (That is when he will check to see if my eggs are big enough) Pray for BIG FAT HEALTHY EGGS! (20mm)

Gustavo is going to Dubai the week that I should be giving my eggs... but I NEED him with me though. As his part will have to be performed on that same day! We will know more about this SOON.

How am I feeling???
I must say... I am in pain. Cramps are awful and LOWER back pain. I swear I want to punch Gustavo in the face everytime he gives me an injection... I feel like he doesn't understand the pain that I am in. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason and I am mean! But I have an excuse!

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

To Tell or Not to Tell? That is the Question!


Many times when people are going through IVF, they do not know who should know. So who should you tell?

1.        Tell your DIRECT supervisor! I have a lot of management in my office, but I only told ONE of my managers.

2.        CLOSE friends… I have only told a handful of people. (And who ever reads the blog) //We have also told the kids!!!//

3.        I HAVE NOT told my family… But we have told Gustavo’s Mother.

Now here are the reasons:
-      Tell your boss because you may be moody with the meds that you are taking. Also because there is a possibility that you will be missing a lot of work. You do not want them to think that you do NOT have a valid reason. I have my doctor give me a sick note, even though I am not asked for it. Just to be on the SAFE side
-      Tell people that care about you and want you happy. They will have a positive energy that will make life a bit LESS stressful. Talk to them and share what you are going thru. One minute you may be crying and the next minute… laughing.
-      I have NOT told my family because I am SCARED to fail. I would hate to get everyone all excited and then have the worst happen.

Now this is just my outlook. You do not have to do it “MY” way. This is just how WE have done it.

I know you may be thinking… How is it a secret if it is on a blog? And the answer is: It isn’t a secret… and I just want to remember EVERY lil piece of this voyage! It is hard to find out a lot of good info on the process!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

September 18th 2013- Hysteroscopy


What a day! I took 2 pills at 0700... And then to the doctor at 0800. Me and Karina sat there until 0830 when they assigned me a room...
***Make sure you shave ANYTIME you are about to go and get a procedure done!*** (I learned that the HARD way this morning... I met a razor with only 2 blades, I didm't know that they still made those!!!) 
The nurse was RUSHING me... Then I get to the surgery floor... And they said that there was a couple of emergencies.... So... Back to my room. I went back around 1115. They had me staged with two other women... They took me first though!:) Once in the operating room... They positioned me on a special bed where the end of the bed comes off. They had me put my legs up around a black pole on each side and then my feet into stirrups. I promise I felt like an ANIMAL at this very moment. Finally they covered me up as I was out in the open for all 20 people in there to see my... "PocketBook"! I looked over to my right side and saw the man who was going to put me to sleep. He gave me Propofol. It looked like Milk! Within 15-30 seconds... I was KNOCKED OUT! I woke up in the recovery room. I was taken back to my room. I looked down at my "PocketBook" and saw that there was Iodine all over down there. So I went to the bathroom to clean myself up. I drank a little bit and then waited for the doctor to come in. Once she did... She gave me medicine (antibiotics to avoid infection) I was given Flagyl 400 mg, Doxycycline 100 mg, Flucozal 150 mg and Warimazol Vag 200 mg (That is a tablet that I have to insert into my "Pocketbook" for 3 days.) 
Karina came and picked me up and we went to grab something to eat. I was about 1330 by then. When she pulled up to my villa, I told her my head hurt and I felt like I would be sick...
Oh My GAWDDD!!! I threw up everything that I ate... AND some. It was so painful! I just kept heaving! Not the best experience! I couldn't stop and my head was killing me! Talking was painful! And I was shaking cold!!! I felt like I was freezing!
I finally fell asleep and then I was up at 1700 to go back to the doctor. I took Mims with me and I didn't have to wait long. Although I know there was a LOT of people that were there before me! (Thank you!!!) I spoke to the doctor. He gave me a prescription for my injections and for folic acid. I asked him what were my statistics of getting pregnant now that he has had a look... He said 60%! I think that is good! As long as it keeps rising!
I got my prescriptions and then came back up to get my first injection. It was not so bad. I have to take one injection for 21 days in my arms. Alternate arms everyday. So I have a LOT of medicine to take for the next week... And then injections. I have to go back after my period starts. The second day of my period, that will be the NEXT STEP!
Thanks Karina!!! I appreciate having our GIRL time and you taking care of me today!!! 
Here are a couple of pictures that I took today!







Friday, September 13, 2013

Guess What? IVF in Kuwait



Gustavo and I have been talking about having another baby since we have been married... We are never together long enough to make it happen though!

I tied my tubes when Mimster was born. I didn't think that I wanted more kids. She was a BIG surprise to me! And what a joy! She keeps us on her toes!
DJ is an easy kid. It doesn't take much to keep him happy!
I love them. They say a Mother's love only multiplies, never divides!

So- Let's start multiplying!

The first step: Get the swimmer's tested!
- I finally got Gustavo to go and spray some babies into a cup! It was very easy... You just walk in, get a cup, pay 23 KD (80.00 USD) Ummm, Release, and then in a couple hours, you have your results! Looks like Gustavo has some GOLD METAL SWIMMERS!!!! YAY!!!

Step Two:
It took me about a week... And a lot of research to decide to go in and see the doctor.
I waited for about an hour to see the doctor. He asked if I knew about IVF and I did. I broke it down the way I understood it... And clearly I was right. Then I met 'WANDA' I had an Ultra-Sound. (INTERNAL) He checked out my Uterus and said, "Looks good"

Okay- Now what?
- Hysteroscopy
- Start injections
- When my period comes, new injections
- Egg Retrival
- Egg Transfer
- Wait 2 weeks...
- Are we pregnant or Not???

Fast Forward a Day:
I got blood drawn. They took two vials to check out my hormones. My doctor said that I should get hysterscopy to check out my womb.
(Hysteroscopy is the inspection of the uterine cavity (or in my case WOMB) by endoscopy with access through the cervix) Basically- They are going to put a camera in my womb to make sure everything is okay in there.
That is a Minor Surgery... So I met with the anesthesiologist. He told me what to be ready for... then they gave me 2 pills to take in the morning of the hysteroscopy.

So I will be going in on the 18th to get that done... And then that night... I will get a class about injectables!

***To save time and money... I will have Gustavo do my injections. Bonding time!!!***

We are so excited! We have already picked names and we are hoping that we will get TWINS!!!

PS- I promise that if I use that cool IVF language, I will also have a break down or cheat sheet! That way you won't be lost like I was!!!

Wish us LUCK!!!

I made a TAB just for our IVF VOYAGE. To keep up with our progress: Click Here