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Thursday, July 17, 2014

Amber has been GHOST

Yes, I just spoke of myself in 3rd person... I have not been on the BLOG in a long time. I love love love to blog and I have just let life get in the way. I can't say that things have been good... I can't say that they have been bad either... And that is only because I am trying to be optimistic! I will start writing more soon though!

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Ombre the WRONG way!

Dear Desert Girl… 
For your viewing and laughing pleasure!
I have given examples of "Good Ombre and BAD OMBRE!"

I have been going to the same lady to do my hair for a while now… What do you do when you get your hair all messed up? I asked… Do you know how to OMBRE… The answer was yes… But I saw once shed started that… OH SHIT! I am in TROUBLE!
I remember telling her… "I do not want LINES in my head!"
This is what I wanted!
Just a couple examples… I also told her… I want a high-light to frame my face… I thought it was going to look great and this way… I wouldn't have to maintain a dye job when it grows out!




Just looking STUPID...


This is the face that I had to make to keep myself from crying! My hair is F*cking YELLOW

 This was the next day… I hid my face because… That is how bad it was
 I saw that they said to FIX it… To put an ash blond or light ash brown… So- That is what I told her to do.
 It is looking ok wet… Right? 
 Ok… This isn't that bad! 
 I left feeling a little better...
 Little did I know… The curls were a DECOY!
 This is the next day… You cannot tell… But me hair looked greenish or grayish
Not SOOOOO bad… Right?

WRONG!
 This is what it looks like… Like HELL
I was going to get it fixed when I was in America… But I was just too busy! I didn't even do my hair when I was home!

HELP ME!!!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Donations for the Philippines

As many of the readers to this blog know, We have a Filipina Nanny. She is more like family to us! I always pick on her and say she is the most spoiled nanny in Kuwait.
Our sweet Mary Ann is from Cebu. 
She was able to get ahold of her family members and most importantly her MOTHER! (Maria)
I was checking my email today and I saw that the KLL (Kuwait Little League) is having a bake sale to raise money for the victims of the typhoon.
I spoke to my husband about all the clothes that we have packed up and ready to send to relatives in America... I asked, "Can we donate them?" He said, "Yes Babe" 
I love that he has such a giving heart! It is hard to find good charities here in Kuwait!
If you can, take advantage of this opportunity!
The holiday season is just around the corner! And maybe there is someone else out there (other then me) who does Winter Cleaning! 
(I LOATH CLUTTER)
If you would like to make a monetary donation, Please visit the Philippine Red Cross.
Salamat

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Our Egg Transfer 29 October 2013

 Anxiety hit me around 2 AM. I got up to tinkle and couldn't go to sleep afterwards. So many thoughts were twirling in my head! Gustavo was sleeping soundly beside me and since I knew he was going to work after I got the eggs transferred and settled back home, I didn't wake him.
 My eyes were wide open... I was thinking about the possibility of really having twins... Or even one baby... I had ruled out the possibility of ever having more kids, but... I want more now:)
 DJ and Mimi are growing up very fast! Though I think I might shelter them a bit too much... They are excited to have more brothers/sisters.

 Okay- On to the story. We got to check in around 0845. We signed some papers and paid for the embryo freezing (A whopping 350 KD!!!)  We went to our room and then returned back to the clinic around 0900. They took 3 of us in to the L shaped room. I was happy because one girl was from my last group and then The American was there too! YAY! Someone to talk to while I am waiting!
 We had to put on our gown like before and then... After about 20-30 minutes, I was told to tinkle and then I went into the room. It was dark and I laid down. I saw the Embryologist... He confirmed my name and then left the room. My room was in-between another room and the Lab door! The doctor came in and got everything prepared. It didn't hurt much. It was like a pap smear. He talked to me about the embryos. He said that 11 of the 18 were great blastocysts. So we inserted two and froze 9. He told the nurse, "Load" she then told the lab... After about 2 minutes, the Embryologist came in with a small and long tube. 

The doctor said he was done. I asked him, "How do you know they are both in there?" He said, "I am going to check now" When he returned, he confirmed they were both inside. The nurse then tilted my bed. Head down, legs up and told me to keep my legs bent.
(Breakdown: 27 eggs retrieved, 21 were mature, 18 fertilized... 11 kept growing...)
Now- I want you to understand that it is normal for your numbers to decrease significantly. So, do not worry if this happens to you.
 It was strange because they left the door open so I could hear what was going on in the room beside me! Poor girl, She had to do the procedure 3 times because her embryos were not going out of the tube!
 After about 30 minutes I was moved to a holding area. I remember I looked at the clock and it was 1215. A Kuwaiti lady was there (The same from the L shaped room) so we started talking. She was really so sweet! I was told that I had to stay in the hospital... 3 days! I said, "No Way!" So, I only had to stay until about 7 PM:) I saw the American and the sweet Kuwaiti before I left the hospital! How nice will it be to be pregnant with other people!
 How am I feeling:
Well- I feel ok. I have a little bit of cramping. 
Let the torture of the wait begin!



Friday, October 18, 2013

Will there be more Menopur?

Tonight I will be getting my LAST dose of Menopur. (I hope!) I was directed to have 3 ampules: 1 water for 7 nights.

I am hoping that at my doctor's appt, that my eggs are going to be plenty and 20mm!
I have to get my blood drawn and then a scan.

How am I feeling???
- Emotional
- A bit bitchy
- Bloated
- Hot Flashes
- Soreness (My thighs)
- Head aches
- People piss me off... QUICKLY (Not the kids... Just the adults!)
- Cramping
- Some short SHARP pains in my stomach
- Lower back pain
- Tired

I have NO idea what they will say to me tomorrow. I just hope that it is good news! I hope that my doctor gives me some kind of answers.

Generally when I ask questions... My doctor always says, "Let's get this step done first"
***IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!***
I am glad that things are SLOWLY progressing!

Everyone in the house is waiting for this to happen! I already feel pregnant!







 

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Oh Doctor...

We went to the doctor on the 10th to get our prescription... It was EXPENSIVE. 159.500 KD
(565.48 USD)
 I have to take these for 7 days! I must go to the hospital to get these injections.
Gustavo will not be able to give me these injections... Joy oh Joy! I start these tonight. I will provide follow ons!
I am really feeling LOST in the process. My doctor hasn't given me a protocol... Or a timeline. I have been doing this about a month now. Medicine, hysterscopy, WANDA scans, period, More shots... SILENCE... And then more meds and shots.
I talked to another woman and she said that she went to the doctor and got shots in her stomach for 5 days... And Waaaaaaahhhh La... Egg Retrieval and Transfer... Preggo with Twins. (BOYS)
Even with the stuff that I am reading on the Internet... NOTHING matches the meds that I am given! I asked "Will I have a 3 or 5 day transfer?"... And he has the whole "Inshallah" attitude.
I never really get any answers...
(Woosa, whilst pulling upon my ear)
Practice my patience!!!
It is hard being a PLANNER and not being able to PLAN!

On a happier note!!! I get two days off to spend with my LOVELY family!!!
Seems like all of my teacher friends are off on FANTASTIC holidays! Enjoy EID! Have fun!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

CH Pink

All the times I have been at The Avenues.... And I have FAILED to see this BEAUTIFUL Creation!
 I do not know if I am a SUCKER... But Anytime I see something with the Breast Cancer Ribbon... I buy it!
The BOTTLE is so nice! I love it! CH makes GREAT perfume, so I am sure this one will be NO less then perfect!
 I have NOT smelled this perfume yet, but I will this weekend! I will report back my findings! (I was NOT able to find this LIMITED EDITION anywhere!)
"Wish aims to bring the concepts of love, hope and solidarity into an inspired product to help the fight against breast cancer."
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    Top Note
    Fruity and citric notes for a young carefree touch. Bergamot from Calabria, Lemon)

    Middle Note
    Warm and elegant (Bulgarian rose, Jasmine sambac, Orange blossom, Praliné, Cinnamon)

    Base Note
    Softer notes, warm interiors (Sandalwood, cedarwood, Cashmere, Patchouli, Amber notes, Transparent musk)





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    Friday, October 4, 2013

    Ready.... Break? Huh???

    Anyone who knows me... Knows that I am a planner. I plan EVERYTHING. It gives me a silent type of enjoyment... Stability. I feel like I have SOME control (When I really know I have ZERO!)

    Sometimes I hate that I am the way that I am. Organized... Analytical and Systematic. SMH. I am NOT much fun!

    So, my period came... Right on time... And I went to the doctor. Gave some blood... And then went back a couple of hours later to see the doctor. I knew that I would be getting my BASELINE ultrasound. What I didn't know is that he was measuring my womb. After "Wanda" left.
    (BTW: This is "WANDA")
     




    I felt the "Cervix opener" go in...
     

    Meet MR. Speculum!!!

     Click click (I hate that sound) and then out of NO WHERE... PAIN! I grabbed that wall and the doctor said, "Stay still" (Can I get some FREAKING warning!!!???) What the hell is going on in there!? The pain brought tears to my eyes! First, I felt it on the Left side, then the Right side! It felt like the doctor STUCK needles into my tubes!
    After a minute it was over... And I finally started to breathe. The nurse gave me a tissue... I wasn't sure if I should wipe my face or my "Pocket Book"!!!
    The doctor then gave me some BAD news... EID is coming so we are going to have to DELAY our cycle... Hmmm (I knew this was going to happen!!! I mentioned it to Gustavo weeks ago)

    He told me to STOP taking my injections at home... (I still have 7 left) then he gave me a prescription.... I went and got the meds... Came back upstairs and WOW! I got a shot in my Left buttocks! It burned! So bad! The needle was big and the nurse had to mix the medicine... It was the same meds I have been taking. Just a much LARGER dosage 3.75 mg



    So What is NEXT???
    I have to go back to the doctor NEXT week (the 10th) to get my NEW meds and then on the 12th to get an injection... AND THEN,  I have to see the doctor on the 19th. (That is when he will check to see if my eggs are big enough) Pray for BIG FAT HEALTHY EGGS! (20mm)

    Gustavo is going to Dubai the week that I should be giving my eggs... but I NEED him with me though. As his part will have to be performed on that same day! We will know more about this SOON.

    How am I feeling???
    I must say... I am in pain. Cramps are awful and LOWER back pain. I swear I want to punch Gustavo in the face everytime he gives me an injection... I feel like he doesn't understand the pain that I am in. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason and I am mean! But I have an excuse!

    Thursday, October 3, 2013

    Naruto

    Below you will see how we ended up with a CAT! Now, If you are a parent, you already know that kids NEVER forget when you make a promise or a deal with them.
    Daddy made a deal with Domiyana... "If you start reading, you can get a KITTEN"

     STEP 1: Tell Daddy you have to tell him something... 
     STEP 2: "Don't say anything"
     STEP 3: Remind Daddy about the deal
     (NOTE: Dad's expression)
     STEP 4: She already knows she won! See their faces?

    RESULT: Domiyana: 1 DAD: 0
     Meet Naruto!
    DJ had a moment at the Friday Market. He started crying seeing how the animals were treated. It is a sad sight to see starving dogs. I told him that at least we saved ONE animal. I love that he has such a Golden Heart!
     Welcome
     Dj playing with the kitten!
     Welcome Home
     Isn't he cute?
     COMPLETELY Spoiled! The cat thinks he is a BIRD!

     Always sleeping!
    Knocked out! 
    This cat is SERIOUSLY spoiled! I really never thought too much about having a cat... But actually... It isn't too bad! They are easily potty trained! We have not had ANY accidents.
    He wants to be held all the time and Mims treats it like a BABY! It is fitting in PERFECTLY.
    THe cat got the name NARUTO because on the stripes on his face!

    Saturday, September 28, 2013

    Simple to SEXY!

    I saw this and thought WOW! What an idea!!! So I am sharing it! I would wear a tank under mine! I am going to try this out and see how it works for me! I do have a lot of TEE Shirts... And I can't wear them to work... SO- Why not!?
    In this tutorial we will show you how to add some glam to an ordinary t-shirt. Of course this technique could be applied to any other shirt you find suitable.
    Start with a shirt, scissors, a ruler and a marker .
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    1.Cut the neckline of the shirt(if it is low neck, you can cut only the back side)
    2.Fold the shirt in half, but be sure to fold only the back part. Use a marker and a ruler to draw a triangle which will actually be weaved area.
    3.Then start cutting the strips – each should be with the size of a thumb – no need to be perfect, so don`t worry. But don`t forget to follow the triangle in order to achieve the desired result.
    4,5,6 -When you are done pull each string aside to make them tiny and rolled up
    7,8,9 Start weaving with the second string – flip it under the first string then put your fingers into the hole and pick up the third string, then put the fingers inside the new hole and grab the next string. Continue doing so until you reach the end. Pull the strings side  from time to time to avoid having your fingers stuck into the hole.   It might sound difficult if explained like this, but actually it is pretty easy.
    10. When you reach the end, cut the string in half and tie it very well and you are ready

    What do you think? Pretty huh?

    ****UPDATE****
    So I actually attempted this when I got home... Mims and Me!
    Scissors, Ruler and marker... CHECK!
    I didn't make the triangle far enough down... And when you are weaving the strings it seems a bit tricky... My shirt came out okay...  Practice makes PERFECT!

    Tuesday, September 24, 2013

    Killing my MONSTER addiction


    I LOVE LOVE LOVE Monster Energy Drinks! It is almost SAD!
    I have to drink one EVERY day! Sometimes I drink 2 a day! I just love them!

    Guess what Amber? You have to STOP drinking them! When I do not have one… I feel like I have a HEADACHE and I NEED one!
    So- What I have done is… I am only drinking ONE a day… Until the case that Hubzy got for me is gone. I was reading that HIGH caffeine intake is not good when you are trying to have a baby… So- I have to do what is right. I have to KILL the MONSTER can!

    I started drinking Monster when I was in Bagram, Afghanistan. A co-worker named Jason bought me one. I have been drinking one every morning since then. I know a lot of people drink coffee, tea or soda… But my only want in the beginning of my day is MONSTER… The GREEN MONSTER! I like the Yellow and the Orange as well. But the Green Monster has me by my taste buds! I have to "Unleash the Beast"

     

    Dream job: Working at Monster or an Apple Store!

    Just Kidding!
     
    Good Bye Monster! I shall save 2.25 a day from here on out!
    But if you are looking for them in KUWAIT... I see that the Sultan Center carries them... The Shaka Bakala does as well. Those are about the only places that I can find them!

    Friday, September 13, 2013

    What a year!!!


    I have no excuse to why I haven't written... I have been trying to keep myself together with all the craziness that has happened this year. I will not get into it all, as I would like that to stay PRIVATE and keep a bit of my self image!!!
     

    I can honestly say that 2013 has been the worst year of my life!

    I thought that it would have been my BEST year since it is DJ and Mimi's GOLDEN year...
     
    Not the case!

    I could probably write a New York Times Best Seller with these 9 months of my life!

    Betrayal and lies consumed my year... My 2013...

     I guess at times you are given crazy situations to see how well you handle them. I must say I believe I deserve an OSCAR!!! I controlled myself better than I ever thought I would. I came to work... And most people would never know that my life was FALLING apart.

     I thought that I had friends, friends who loved me and cared about me... But that was not the case. I was merely a person who had expectations of the people that I cared about. I didn't want to see them as they were...  I talked to them about what was going on in my life, my worries and fears. Big Mistake! I felt like I lost myself! Like no one could see me. I saw everyone else having fun and living their lives... Why do I always have to be so responsible?

     Jealousy consumes a lot of people around you. You may not be aware of it. The secrets that you share with your "friends" will be used as ammunition against you!
     
    *** Jealousy is an emotion, and the word typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something of great personal value, particularly in reference to an existing connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, resentment,. ETC***
     


    People will spread rumors... Make false judgments... they will LIE, LIE, LIE on you... BUT Remember... You will learn from this. AND be so much stronger!


    I know that I have learned a lot and realize that I am a STRONG woman!!!
     
    Remember when a ship is going down... No one wants to see anyone else get in a life boat!
     

    FINALLY~
    Things are turning around now!!!
     

    I am happy that my family is back TOGETHER. Gustavo is back from Afghanistan. The kids have returned from their Summer vacation in North Carolina. We are all just adjusting to each other again.
     

    I am so glad that they are back. It makes me happy to know that I have someone on my side when the World is against me.
     
    Our marriage has been VERY hard and I am hoping that compared to this year, we will have SMOOTH SAILING from here on out!

    We are building a house (AGAIN) and it should be complete by the end of the year!

     
     


     

    Sunday, December 16, 2012

    New Tattoos

    By looking at me, people would not know that I have any tattoos. I actually like it that way!

    I realized that I couldn't see any of the tattoos that I already have... So- When on vacation... I got two!
    I didn't think that I was going to have the time, but we had a layover in Dallas...

    This tattoo is OUR Wedding date. I really wanted this tattoo. Gustavo also has the same tattoo in the same spot:) Now he will never "FORGET" our anniversary! LOL.
    (Wow- I have more freckles then I realized, gotta love FLA)

    Now- This is actually a completely sweet and intimate story...

    I was looking around and found a verse that I really liked...
    "Love Never Fails" 1 Corinthians 13:8 (NIV)
    I wrote it down on a sticky note and stuck it on my computer screen...
    Fast Forward...

    When Gustavo and I got married, the man there asked if we would like to have a scripture read, we said, "YES"
    Guess what he read??? You guessed it!
    1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (ESV)
    And his last words were, "Love Never Ends" 
    So- I decided to get that as well...  in My own handwriting!
     I know that you cannot tell from the photo... But this is the inner/upper arm...

    We went to a place called "Tiger Moon"

    The owner (Britt) was so nice to us and even gave us a ride back to the hotel! The taxi NEVER showed! We waitied FOREVER!!! The place was super CLEAN!

    Thursday, October 11, 2012

    From Gustavo:)

    I went and got my mail... And then started dancing in the parking lot when I saw this BOX!!!
      He always knows what to say!
     Isn't this so beautiful!?
    I cannot wait to write in this!!! I want to fill it with so many memories! 
    And NO GUSTAVO!!! You cannot read it until WE are OLD! LOL.
    Maybe it will be like "The Notebook"
    I love you! Thank you!

    I wanted to add the necklace to this post... It came on my birthday! Good timing!
    The Past, The Present and The Future!!!
    I hope that things continue to go as they are now... And better.
    There is no looking back!